I started having this strange feeling of loneliness, self-pity, and sadness in my first year in college.
I had no idea what it was,
but one thing I knew was that
it all started when my teacher called me out In front of the whole class
for not carrying out the tasks that were assigned to me.
I was a brilliant student in school,
even though I could be nonchalant sometimes,
?I never took this to heart
?until she called me out in front of the whole class.
After that experience, I couldn't listen in class;
thoughts of that scenario kept playing in my head
and my grades dropped drastically.
my friends started avoiding me,
thinking I was acting weird.
My parents advised me to see a doctor.
?I started imagining weird things.
One minute I was overly excited,
while the next minute I was all moody.
At this point, I had been withdrawn from school;
they felt I might be a danger to other students.
Whenever my parents mentioned treatment,
I would retort
with "nothing is wrong with me."
Until I reached a breaking point
?and couldn't go on any longer by myself.
I needed help.
?Unfortunately, therapy is costly and definitely out of my budget.
So, I decided to look for alternatives.
I (hesitantly) applied for a service,
and I was assigned to a therapist
who started engaging me multiple
times a week.
I was ultimately diagnosed with "bipolar disorder" as I suspected.
"I'll help you manage it."
That was what she said to me.
kept telling me to continue with it, which I did.
I started noticing significant changes in my behavior.
?I could sleep better, eat well, talk amongst people,
and do other stuff I couldn't do before.
After a few weeks, I finally felt like myself again,
due to the help of my online therapist.